Dear, Someone Beautiful

Dear,
Someone beautiful,
I haven't spoken to you like this in ages and it is a shame because it was worth every moment. right now typing this is worth every second I spend on typing this. I do it for you because I love you. I find it troubling sometimes because I've told you in so many ways with so many reasons why I love you and I mean it all so much. Now I feel like I have to tell you again is such a different way but to be honest there are a million ways to say it but I've always loved you Carla Abreu and always will forever and ever


always and always


no matter.


I want you to know that and I could stress it over and over again but I don't ever want us to loss this feeling we have. I want to hold onto it as long as possible. It means a lot to me and hope it does for you too. There is just so many things in this world that don't make sense but you seem to be the first one that does and I am not lossing that. You still make me feel on top of the world when I am with you. ahah, technically I am compared to you >: )   (I LOVE YOU) But for real, you actually do and I love that and I want that to never go away okay?

I called you but no one answered

I love you. I am sorry for beating myself up. I do it because I love you.


goodnight muffin




: )


do well on that test today




I  love you

Little lover...I've been trying so hard to find someone like you

no no no, the blogs don't stop there, they keep on going, I haven't blogged in a while, but in fair trade, I have had some of the most amazing moments of my life with you, the very person I love, and I couldn't ask for anything more. I guess this is a time for me to reflect on the time we have had together and all the amazing moments we always share. Every time I am with you all my worries drop. You are the remedy to all worries, you make me so happy. I want to make the most of every moment I have with you because you are so important to me and you are a huge part of my life now. I've decided you are such a huge part that I am actually taking it for granted now. It makes me feel more confident and it means I trust you and I really do, more than anyone. I can tell you anything, I tell you everything and I love doing it. I just want to say I love 11:11, walks in the rain, staring at you in the sun...in the rain, kissing you in the rain, seeing how beautiful you are even with tears in your eyes or down your cheek, hobo mode, our little arguments that just prove how dweeby we are for each other like arguing over who's eyes or more pretty, and so much more Carla. I could keep this list running all night but you said you wanted me to get some rest and it is already 2:28 am so I fail at sleeping early.

I am going to sleep now,
I hope you are dreaming :3
If now then I will have a great dream for you and I hope you are sleeping really well :)

Goodnight my love

I love you

Everything I do, I do it for you

inside and out, what can I say, YOU are a beautiful woman. You glitter my life withyour purely amazing presence and I am so glad for it. Every moment with you is amazing, just laying down with you and talking softly into your ear and you leaning back over smiling. Looking into your eyes, seeing you so happy like today. I was so happy to see you and have spent that time with you. There reason why it sounds like I can't put it into words is because it is hard for me and I am always used to using metphors but this time I just want to say the things and and moments I've enjoyed. Like I loved it even when it was just the two of us at christie listening to rocky raccon and we both knew we liked each other and you laughed and said wwwhhaatt when I smiled at you :3 I thought it was so cute aha : ) yet i was so shy at the same time. I love it and hate it when you say I am perfect because I am so happy I am doing everything I can,without even trying, to make you so

ubelievably happy. Yet I "hate" it because I know I'm not perfect but yet you make me love it because I am making you so happy and all I want is to see you happy :3 But I love it even when we just talk, about whatever it may be, just hearing your gorgeous voice and seeing you talking and hearing you, all of it, the moment, everything, it is great : )

There is so much more I could say but it is getting late and i am tired so I am going to go rest. I love you so much carla.

Goodnight. : )

Purely Amazing

Sizzling at my feet,



You are the flame that corrupts me,


A dead ocean I am,


At freezing temperatures,


But you boiling my water,


You arouse the life within me


And I scream,


Thank you




Never in my life have i felt so alive when I am with you, when I merely talk with you it is purely amazing.

There is a point in many peoples' lives where they say "I love you" but don't say it with the feeling that follows it. What? You want to tell you what this feeling is? I can't do that. Only you can find it and I say it is rare to find. It is love but love is merely a word slurred through our lips like every other word we know. You must posses this feeling to understand it. So if you understand, then I am going to say that I really love this girl and nothing is going to get in the way of us being together.

I promise.

: )

Poem

Words are now spoken,
I cannot hide no more,
All is spoken,
The truth is this poem.

A letter of words

But in all honesty,
I made this for you,
Because I really care,
And I love you lots.
So I made this for you
And each day I write
It means more and more
Too me and for you



: )

I picked a flower

The flower I had once wanted to hold is now in my hands,



A very beautiful flower,


The most gorgeous flower I've ever seen,


But there is more than just mere beauty,


You have to take the time to smell this flower,






To learn it's scent and love its beauty.






This flower is amazing...so beautiful, yet its scent is so admirable

There were so many flowers amongst the flowerbed but I'm so happy I picked this one out of it  :3

Waking The Fallen

Like a Scream furry,
The walls are torn and flood the city,
The love evaporates beneath the buried,
And the musical harps begin to moan in an angry furry


lol that was me being hiiiii

Lets have jesse,

I was the fallen,
You rewoke me

thank you : )

Night Giz

Love,

Spidey Ging

1 more day, make the most of it : ) have fun

on my mind

I miss you.

: )

busy days, busy days, this last week has been so busy that I have not blogged really, yet everyday I think of you. I was looking forward to seeing you so much that I actually forgot about my aunt, uncle and cousin arriving today to live here in Cananda -___-    : )


I miss you so much, you don't even know


We have ssooooo much to do and chat about when you get back : )
oh, so how's the rubik's cube going?
;D
ahah, I really want to finish teaching you! You've gotten so good at it now! Here is the deal, if you can finish it then the cube is yours. Deal? >: D 


OMG my cousin is soooo annoying! He loves music but loves pop! -___- like lady gaga and that stuff only lasfjasldfkasd so like I'm dying over here because all he wants to show me are lady gaga videos! PLEASE COME HOME AND SAVE ME! He'll get along really really really well with Adri ahah xDD


So I miss you now,
Like before,
But more than ever,
Right now,
...come home? :3


sorry that i'm posting this now at 5 in the morning but my cousin is here from Newzealand and was annoying me like crazy that I had to unplug my computer screen so that he wouldn't use my computer lol


I'll be seeing you really really soon : )




Love,
lots of love,
Jesse


: D

Get me out of here

I was at your house today :) I wanted to go over. It was my idea so don't go after your mothers aha :) but we just chatted about so many things! Your mom is really awesome, you're lucky to have her despite the times you hate xD I saw patty and patty was sososososososoosos cute as usual! Your parents really miss you and adri :) just saying.

Everything is starting to rot without you here,
You were the roots to this awesome life,
torn out,
Now the world stands not knowing how to grow anymore,
Instead it rots until oneday
you plant your seed back into the lives of us all,
Come back soon

Come back soon

...


Oh I also went swimming today with Billy, Hannia (-_- lol), and billy's other friend who's name I forget now and I feel bad that I forget her name. I wanted susie to come but she couldn't make it. Oh, I think toy story might be still be playing when you get back :3

But again I'm just saying hi :)

I miss you

BUT I'LL SEE YOU SOON!!!

Love,
That crazy spidey Ging xD

next move...

I know you don't want to make your move yet...




...just waiting...


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lol this "waiting" thing is getting to sound creepy lmfao tutut -____- but I am waiting :3

k...last post today xD




night Giz : )

Thoughts here and there but over there

;asdjfasl;d I can't even think straight right now...my mind is wandering in every direction looking for a particular activity to feast itself on but I"M ADHD T______T (carla) xD well that is just one more thing in this life I am going to have to work on....yet I'm able to think about you whenever i want :3

so there are 8 more days left eh?

I guess I'll just wait :3

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sigh...


-
Jesse


i hope you are sleeping well : )

waiting waiting waiting

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and I wait some more, yes for you but for something else...I guess you could say I've been waiting a while now so it can explain my anxiousness a bit ...


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....




: )




...waiting with a smile

The Snake That Bites (Miss Abigail)

August 3rd and lagging so sloooowwwwww....so I'm going to finish cleaning my room today xD LOL I want it to be clean for when my cousin comes over and for when you and Adri come over for my birthday thing xD lol, it is like the CHILL spot of the house ;D So today I stay up late once again and I will probably wake up to write the rest of my song titled "Miss Abigail" it will probably be the 2nd song i've actually ever completed fully : DDD I'll show you the first one one day xD ahah it was for my grade 11 music project and I sucked even more at piano then ...so it took me forever to record everything the way I wanted it xDDD lol

ANYWAY!

The rain that fell,
Blended tears,
Shades of gray,
The subway stops,
A dead man near,
A smoke of gray,
Trees that rattle,
Faces that smile,
Men that care,
Women who laugh,
Boys who are hurt,
Girls who smile,
The snake that bites,
Leaves the day,
Gives a feeling,
Shares a hate,
But never evil,
....Just random words from the top of my head that described the day that passed : D

: )
miss you

talk to you soon : )

hi : )

ooommmmggg I'm listening to Don't Stop Me Now by Queen... aha it sucks that we can't talk and I'm on someone's shity iphone because my iPod is dead but just wanted to say hi :3

What's Your card?

Time is space to fill but it is how we fill it that defines us...what will we do and who is involved in that time?

The last month the only time I've had was "wasted" spent thinking about you. I could have chosen to focus all my other thoughts on something else but my mind always somehow went back to you. I keep wondering what the first habe of my summer would have been like if you were here. What would we have done with this summer? ...So I guess that tells me that I've hopelessly fallen in love :3 No matter what I am doomed to think about you for the rest of the summer no matter what I do....especially now that I can't...or WE can't get that one thing off our mind now. >: D Jesse's fault right? 8DD. I'm glad I can speak my mind with you. You are cool, I really never minded talking to you about stuff because you were always so awesome now you're even more awesome : ) thanks for being awesome.

Name: Jesse AKA Super Ging


HP-infinate
Status- hopelessly in love
Picure- : O     <--------LOL OMS?
Attack- Flying Gingerbread Men
Defence-  : D SMILE
Special Abilities- being able to care  aaaa lot for a little gremlin :3
- ginger tear spice
- THE POWER OF AWESOME FRIENDS - awesome friends will appear when you most need them because they are awesome
- The Power Of BLOGGING!!!


Type- LOL, I don't even know what to put here xD What should I put for type?? you tell me xD




So Giz, what's your card?


;D  




it says i posted this at 12 but I posted it at 3:10am xD

Dear, Someone Beautiful...I type to you again

Once more on this lovely evening I type even though I said I would sleep I had this feeling that kept telling me.... Jesse blog, Jesse blog....but there is nothing to blog that I haven't said, but to say it once more is no harm to you....only another smile on your face which makes me happy too. There is a certain thought perhaps that has stuck with me all summer....I guess I'm more excited than worried. I wish I could tell you but I don't want to reveal my thoughts just yet. So now i'm not the only one. Now you must hopefully want to know what is on my mind but I will not tell you. Just remember to ask me at the right moment.

This is not the poet speaking by the way, just me telling the truth. But once again,  I miss you alot

I'll talk to you soon


: )

Okay, being serious

: )

a VERY serious letter

LOl no, today I decided to just be like..yeah, lol, like yo dude. So I was chilling all day today painting outside in the heat. I swear to god I was going to get skin cancer or have some stroke tutut. Then all of a sudden as I'm on the roof top painting my music fades and makes a stupidly funny noise and I'm like WTFWTF I look and it is CARLA!!!!! I will not hide the fact that i actually got this huge stupid smile on my face xD i was like : DDDDD And then for the rest of the day I was more than distracted  by this lovely girl ;D I was actually more than happy to be bothered by her constantly : D  I guess it is alright that we don't get to chat as much as we would like to....I gives us more to talk about the next time we chat : )  But then I went inside and fought with my step for like 5 min and then we were like lelel alala sorrys, basically that means we made up ...kinda, lol then I was like DANNY COME OVER, then this GIRL, you know who you are, shows up AGAIN and I'm like : DD and Danny looks at my face and is like -____- dear god.... I'm like yo Danny STFU xD Unfortunately the who messaging and video call and everything was a huge fail ahah : ) but that is okay. there is lots of time : ) I promised I would blog but had no idea i would be doing it like this...so casual...but isn't casual nicer sometimes : )


I really really really really MISS YOU ASLDFJASFLAKSJ  : D but I know you already know that : )  But you wanted me to tell you what we talked about ;D I'll fb message you : )


So I'm going to be at work later today...at 1:30pm so...I'll be online at work at 4:30pm  when I'm on my break : D hopefully we'll talk then but if not we'll inbox each other : )


OMGOMGOM THIS ALBUM IS SO FUCKING RANDOM...like every song is a different genre of metal -_____- it's like they couldn't decide before they made the albuma nd shoved them into one album....check out the review on my wall xD  But there are good songs....but they could have made better songs in those genres if they chose one.....tutut....i'm sure the loss of the REV must have lead them like alsdfjasldfijasldfijasdlfjiasdfl


But I'm writing to you because I enjoy talking to you. But it is getting latre once again so I'm going to message you on fb and yeah : ) ahah


lol, I think I tried too hard at making this casual xD


I'll talk to you soon


: )




bye : )

Not much to say, only the truth

Not much to say, only the truth...



I really like you




Just being honest with you : )

You have my color

But didn't you know?
Everyday,
I face your door,
But you're not there,
But I know the longer I wait,
The longer it will be
But I wait anyways,
Because thinking about you for endless hours
Is more satisifying than a moment without the thought of you.


I've lost track of time,
With you always on my mind,
I was late for work because of you,
You've left me in a timeless gap,
I cannot escape you,
I was late with the most pleasant thought,
The thought of you,
If I thought of you every time I was late
Than that would be everyday,
A day already filled with you,
You in my conscience,
All the time.
Obsessed, you may call me
But that is all I have
But that is all...






Thanks Giz : ) 

A wish for a sooner wish

I wished and i told you but I wished before, and I wished for a wish I did not tell you. I will make my own wish...you'll see what I mean,

I'm a poet now,

I cannot tell you how.

I wait for your return.




I'm no longer a poet but I'm that fluffy tall orange man you know...k ..I'm not fluffy but

: ) I'm waiting for you to get back soon

Dear, Someone Beautiful...

Dear, Someone Beautiful...


I have not written to you here in a while and I should have...sigh... now I shall write...






....for someone beautiful

Just saying

So I write you today to say that you have left which I already konw,

But now that I've cleared my mind it is easier to think.

This doesn't mean I'll stop blogging here >: D 

I'm going to write to and for you everyday because you're awesome

Thanks for being such an awesome person but most of all thank you for being a great friend : )

oh shit , I'm going to be late for work BYE! :)

Don't worry

DON"T WORRY!!! I"M NOT HURTING MYSELF I'M A POET AT HEART AND I MUST EXPRESS MY SELF IN THE MOST INTENSE POETIC WAY POSSIBLE BECAUSE IT"S MORE MEANINGFUL BECAUSE IT TAKES EFFORT TO PUT MY THOUGHTS INTO WORDS


I write for the intensity and passion of writing, and now I have something worth writing for. I mean what I write but I write if I'm going to write it then I write it with meaning.

: )

I know i said it would probably make me crazy if I  tried to stop thinking about you but I tried it today...I didn't go crazy...

....I went COMPLETELY insane

: )

Today has been a day like many days but a happy day and that's okay because being happy is important. So I was walking home and I was happy :3 that's all :) just saying. I hope you're happy. :) well, I know you are. (I can't write much because I'm on my iPod touch and it's killing me XD well it's actually not but I feel that you probably won't want to hear me say the same stuff over again, even though I mean it :) also my computer isn't working -___- ). So now write but think to choose to write less or more. I'll say more. It tis 1:26 and I don't mind writing for you one bit ;). Ever day I think about you more and more and can't really help it. I'm waiting for your return which will be amazing and will make me very happy and hopefully you too xD Right now everything I do like eating a cracker with cheese I will do while think of you and I guess anyone would think it would make you go insane but like I said, it's the only thing that is keeping me sane. (my thumbs are hurting) I try to think of you everyday even though I know I will anway without trying. I do it so that I can keep myself sane because if I tried to not think about you in the attempt to distract myself from you then I would go insane because I would know that I am still thinking about you. So I think about you and that makes me happy and then I can go on with the rest of my day :) ahah xD was that confusing? That's part of the reason I'm writing this blog because I honestly need write and I want you to know :) because you should know and I don't mind. I wrote a song yesterday, just saying ;D I think you might have influenced it a bit xD but that's cool! When you get I think we should write songs because I suck at guitar and you can rock out on it and we can just jam an awesome piece of music xD lol, I'm just rambling on now but I just want to keep writing to you. It's 1:40 now and my cat is melding at me like crazy and will not leave me alone!!!!!! (Carla) ooommggg shut up ALLEY!!! So besides that, today I worked an wrote music and put up with my stupid cat as usual XD I'm trying to motivate myself to just get a move on for like life lol. So in otherwards I'm not really doing much xD lol, I'm just waiting :3 waiting waiting waiting.

As I wait so the flower's return,

I soil my memory of our last encounter,

I long for the moment I may hold this flow again,

This is a very beautiful flower,

Like no other I've seen before,

It's colors so vibrant

And moods so pleasant,

I hope that this flower may sprout soon so I may see it again :)

I hope we can talk soon

Oh....I wonder how patty is doing xDD poor thing XD lol sorry just a random thought XD

Okay now my thumbs are killing me!!! I don't think I've ever written so much fro

My iPod before lol dndkskfheks (carla) I'm just a crazy mofo xD anyway, I hope you're having a great time over there :D and I'll hopefully talk to you soon! This was a good blog for me :) I got lots off my mind I think.

Okdhdjejd it's even hard for me say bye on a blog!! Lol! Okay bye xD

Miss you

Love,

The Naked Man

What if...

What if you were here,

Would it be boring?

It is boring now,

But never boring when you're here,

So it wouldn't be boring if you were here,

You make everything awesome,

You're always someone I can look to

And never have a dull moment with,

Even in silence your smile entertains me,

It takes any frown that may be hiding within me,

And turns it into a smile.

And I smile back and you ask me why I'm smiling : )

I can't help it,

I'm happy

I know you may think I'm a bit lame but I mean everything I say to you. Just letting you know : )

Thanks for making me smile

Love,

The Naked Man

Went Outside Finally

I actually went outside for the first time in almost 3 weeks and I wish you were with Danny and I. Though our day was very lazy and kinda boring we still managed to have a fun time which was great. We went swimming, played some basketball at my house, ate and played Wii xD

So other than that I obviously thought of you today and wondered how the day might have gone by if you were here : ) I hope we get to talk soon. I really miss talking to you and we still need to work on the rubik's cube : ) ahah BUT! MOST IMPORTANTLY I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOUR TRIP IS GOING AND HOW YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!

Hopefully we will talk soon : ))


miss you,

Bye : )

For The Longest Time

I was listening to Billy Joel and the second half of the song I really appreciated

“

Who knows how much further we’ll go on,

Maybe I’ll be sorry when you’re gone,

I’ll take my chances,

I forgot how nice romance is,

I haven’t been there for the longest time,

I had second thoughts at the start,

I said to myself

Hold on to your heart,

Now I know the woman that you are,

You’re wonderful so far,

And it’s more than I hoped for,

I don’t care what consequence it brings,

I have been a fool for lesser things,

I want you so bad,

I think you ought to know that

I intend to hold you for the longest time

 ”

...I smiled when I heard the lyrics : ) just saying.  

How's portugal? : D

miss you  : )

A Note For You

so today I was at work and after I was done work I pulled out my sketch book and I started writing a poem but then I slowly turned into a letter....a note...for you : ) I'll show it to you when you get back.

: )

Night LadyVengeance

Bye : )

Hello Someone Beautiful

I kinda miss having you show me a new song you learned :  D You're always so excited to show me and I'm always so excited to hear you play : )  But I think we are both finally having a good time now and that's what matters. Once again I have to go but I miss you and I'll probably tell you that everytime because it's true : ) It's true a lot .

Love,

The Naked man

:D

I MISS YOU!

Bye : )

Dear, Someone Beautiful

Dear, Someone beautiful

It is much too late for me to be typing. But I shall leave you my most honest words in several hours after I have gotten some rest : D

Bye : )

I could probably keep posting stuff on this blog all day

You don't even understand...well ahah I'm sure you do actually but I can honestly keep writing stuff all day about you because you're so awesome : ) I miss you a lot and I know it's probably not good if I'm ALWAYS thinking about you but I am xD I can't help it! I'm counting the days down the days down ahah but I'm always enjoying my days now : ) I've found things to do and I'm hanging out with different people which is great! I mean like Billy! WE kinda hangout once in a while which is cool! But I wish you were here D: OHH!! LOOLL, i think your mom knows...that's all i'm gonig to say on this blog, we'll talk about it later on msn ahah, sigh..... -_____-

So for my own sake I'm going to blog one post or several a day on this blog so that I can get rid of all my thoughts : D not just for me, but so you know what's on my mind : )

Okay I need to run now

BYE!

BYE! : )

You'll Never Know

Like a musical tune it only brings a question

But not what it means,

Only what will be said.

The time has elapsed since parting,

Minutes now hours,

Days now weeks,

And rarely enjoying a solitary moment within each one,

But I've found my distractions,

And that makes me happy,

How can it possibly be said?

When distance has set its toll 

Does heart change or grow?

Once the parting is no longer,

A massive urge to reveal one thought within my mind

Is only so easy in words,

But in heart...I have no doubts either

Why should there be worry,

The mouth of my thoughts cloud my intentions with worry,

Worry that must be kept aside.

If worry is dismissed

Will hours become minutes again?

 

 Probably not...i mean how is that even possible?  : ) So maybe minutes will still seem like hours but how I spen those 'hours' is what matters I guess...I've already spent a good time of them making this blog, which I must say was worth it : ) and I'm glad I did it

The confirmation of this poetic spree has already assured me that my mind is foolish and that I must stop worrying and smile...because sometimes that's all we have...we do it for ourselves and for others. That is the end of my poem I guess...yeah aha : )

I hope you read this blog

Water For a Meal of Words

A flavour of flower that sweetens the mind with every encounter

I

Mount the shadows that arise but your smile that gleams with a joy recoil the mounted shadows,

Zapping a vengeance into nothing but a happy moment.

Soft melodies awaken me and strain my sleep with the face that cures me

I

Have fallen for many before but for non so sinister in their radiant beauty and persona

Every moment is a laugh that becomes a gleaming smile.

Forking for a melody that yet again sweetens the mind is no effort,

I

Merely paint a wall with song and it mentions joy,

But in the words are meaning,

They may be opposed,

Or given a chance upon site and cherished for their enlightening details.

But whichever route the mind may choose to accept,

It is no harm,

When no.

It is amazing,

If yes.

For I am human

And so are you

But we heal.

These words compel my definite thoughts,

Which should be pondered upon.

The rifle may cause a bloody stain

But it may seize it's direct fire and morph

Into a pleasant memory...

Take its time

Free flow,

Let it travel,

It is not a desease

you may to your time,

As many ruin,

Many may realize,

I am clueless,

I only care,

Care too much? 

I'm not sure,

I'll know I guess....